If this is love..

Valentine's Day is fast approaching and with this season of love there are lots of handwritten declaration, chocolates, and tacky decorations. And for me, there was a dream.

Last night I dreamed that Juan and I were getting married. It was all so exciting, everyone was there, all my family, including, interestingly enough, my extended family which I hardly ever see, but have all befriended me on facebook. My college friends (all of them) were hanging around, waiting for the ceremony and I was getting dressed in my wedding gown when I realized:

If Juan and I get married-- he wont be able to go on a mission and neither will I.

A sense of urgency and discomfort began suffocating me and I wasn't sure how I could just go and cancel the wedding with everyone here, but I know that I couldn't go through with it either. And then I began to realize, I couldn't go through the temple, because I hadn't gone through the necessary processes. I asked Juan if he had, and he said that he had. I asked if he had the marriage license from the state and he didn't. And I realized, even if I wasn't a sissy and didn't want to back out, I had to, because we couldn't legally do this.

But that didn't resolve the problem: everyone was there.

And then I woke up.

Saliva

I am glad that I do not have a saliva issue unlike some people I know, if I did, how could I ever kiss the love of my life? I mean, look at this little kid, who would have thought he would turn out to be the boy I got to boss around? (see picture below).

Green houses

What happens in Vegas...

Over Martin Luther King Weekend, Juan and I went to visit his Uncle and my sister in Las Vegas. It was pretty CrAzY.

Trees and Life

I always loved trees, I wonder if I could ever be a tree woman.

Technology, Family, and Time

There have been a few things running through my head today (not to mention the nasty virus that has been running/ruining my throat)

Mostly, however, my thoughts are rotating around these three themes: technology, family, and time.

I have found lately that technology has been consumming our lives, I am writing this in my online blog, which should be case in point enough, however as I feel like expounding, indulge me in the following list of ways in which my technology portfolio has expounded recently. I am the pround owner of:

• 2 digital cameras (these are really my pride and joy)
• 1 dieing car (even if it may not last more than a couple more months and I am scared to think about driving it considering the noises it makes and the money it will cost to get insurance and to keep it running)
• 1/2 laptop computer (which I share with Juan since he hasn't technically left on his mission yet. However, since I am usually on a computer at work all day anyway, this usually doesn't pose a problem)
• 1 working cellular telephone and 2 broken ones
  
• 1/3 video camera (Juan actually received this from his work for a Christmas present, but since I use it to record my class lectures, I have commandeered it from him for most of the time)
• 3 flash drives (all of which were free to me)
• 1 very loud alarm clock (I have had this since I was 16 and so although it used to come with a CD player, it stopped working soon after Ilya managed to get ahold of it)
• 1 CD player (not super practical since I can just listen to any music I want online)
• 1/2 toaster (I bought this with Cami when we moved in together and she will probably take it if she gets married, but I suppose that is how life goes)
• 1 oster blender
• 1 hand mixing blender (very nice birthday present from Heidi)

This leads me into technology which is more difficult to "own" and which generally is just used- i.e. social networking tools, email services, and other computer applications. Facebook, although not always a very practical tool, has become much more popular in my family recently and even my sisters and my dad who I never thought would be into that type of thing, have joined.

The feeling is similar to when you have a nonmember friend at school who you always used to invite to church, but never assumed they would come and then one day you see them in the pew next to yours. You are happy, but skeptical and not really sure what to make of the whole thing.

I suppose it works though, having a place where we can all connect since we are so separate physically. Having more time to discuss things. More time in general. And yet, not really having any more time than we did before.

Which leads me to my final topic, which is time.

Last Thursday I attended a lecture that was trying to convince us all to go to Oxford for a summer abroad program. Although I have high hopes for myself, I also have low funds and so live vicariously by listening to other people talk about study abroad programs instead of actually signing up for them myself. While discussing the benefits of this particular program, however, the professor mentioned that one of the greatest ones was that of time. Time to be alone, time to walk the gardens and time to not be rushed about as we often are here on campus. And I drank in the thought like a breath of fresh air. Time.

And then I quickly scurried off to my next class, adding the occasional jog in between foot steps so that I wouldn't be late. Over scheduling seems to be one of my strong points and I wonder when I will ever have that time. The time to do nothing. I wonder, if I had that time, if I would quickly schedule it full of something else. I wonder.

I am my mother's daughter

Lately I have been realizing that any time I have any ailment, all I have to do is call up my mother and I will get the instant diagnosis. It would be helpful if she just made a big long list of everything she has ever had, unfortunately I usually just have to find out as I go along, so I decided to make my own list of things:

• Rolling veins (impossible to get my blood through a needle)
  
• Scoliosis (particularly causing foot and back pain)
  
• TMD
• Gallstones